no-one to call - i cant make it stop - ive tried everything - the more i say it wasnt me - the worse it gets - i curled up in a ball an closed my eyes but it was still there - ive pushed it back - but its still there - the girl i saw in my head - its not me - its the girl i feel is me when i think about the pain - she is so scared - she didnt want to be found and he found her - she wants her toy - but its gone - he takes her away and i dont want to know where or why - I cant know - I wont know - this is stupid - why cant i let it go - I say its not happening now - it wasnt me - but it wont go away - I cant ground myself - I can only push it back - im going to take a sleeping pill and hope this goes away.... thankyou for being there.. I'm sorry...