((((((((((((((((Echoes)))))))))))))))))))

Anger can be a very scary emotion. I had a time when I totally blew up at my pdoc in the hospital - in person.....screaming and yelling at him......in front of 2 student interns!!!! I felt horribly embarassed afterward and I had a hard time even looking at him. We never talked about it but I thought obsessively about what he thought of me. Part of me wishes we could have addressed it and come to some resolution.
I guess I just want you to know you are not alone - I understand how uncomfortable it is for you now, but try to have positive thoughts and stay with your 'wise mind', which I'm sure knows that T doesn't hate you.

You have my understanding, support and hugs if you want them.