Wow, I feel like I sound like I am really lecturing you and I am so sorry about that. I guess I just sense that you don't have to be doing this alone. There are therapists out there, I think you mentioned that you live in Ohio, I don't know where but if you want some help there are places to look. It might take some research on your part but here are some suggestions.

Call a teen hotline or an adult hotline and see if they know of any places that are on sliding scale.

Go back to your school counselor and find out if they can suggest anyone?

There are so many colleges and universities in the area and often times they have graduates who are supervised that work on a sliding scale that will help. They might also provide groups that are not just limited to students.

The good news is that people are more familiar with cutting than they were before and they recognize how serious it is. Peope want and can help you uncover the feelings that are beneath the urges.

The worst that can happen from reaching out is that you don't connect with anyone but what if you did and started to feel more in control of your actions? You are not alone in this and I think once you reach out you will find people not only on this site but in person who can help you. Hey, you never know by sharing with them you might help another person.

You can always turn back but you might discover something pretty cool within and if you don't cut then you don't have to worry about hiding those parts of your body.

Please keep us posted...