Sitting, it certainly seems as though these ways we have learned to survive "make us" to be one way. A fundamental or intrinsic place of being. Maybe I am just an optimist, but, I believe that fundamentally I am whatever is inherent to my soul and personality and the rest are ways I learned to cope and to survive. While they may, right now, seem fundamental and insurmountable, I believe that I do possess the power and resources to unlearn what it is that I "learned" in order to survive.

Next week I may feel different, but right now there is much hope.