I feel unreal a lot. Like A LOT. constantly I just get these random feelings of that I am not real, or feelings of realizing I am real, and that I am actually alive. It gets in the way, like If I am driving, it may happen and then I get scared of maybe passing out. I am paranoid a lot too, and that does interfere too because I can't help be be paranoid. I don't drink refills from waiters, unless I know them, but then I still don't drink refills if they walk off with another persons cup too. I am not very assertive, and if I am and make anyone feel bad in any way, I am scared (paranoid) that they will actually kill me. A whole bunch of stuff I am paranoid about.

I don't show my emotions very well. If I am depressed, no one will be able to tell, or if I get angry, no one knows. I am like that all the time.