Sitting,
I am not really really close yet. I just started seeing her the beginning of December, I still have a ways to go, it takes alot for me to trust. But I am starting to trust her some. We will both get there some time

Earthmama,
Thank you, the urge to run was huge. Just that sick feeling in the stomach, and nerves raging. I don't like people to know that about me. I went in there a bundle of nerves, and actually decided to tell her about it, but I don't think she could see it lol...I held myself together pretty dang good, didn't even drop a tear in that session.

notme9,
Do you think you will ever ask? Somethimes I think, well she is letting this out, perhaps she wants me to know she's human lol....then I imagine she knows that letting that out also leaves the opportunity for one to ask about it, or else she wouldn't do so at all. I don't have the nerve yet, but I may actually do that one day when I get to know her more. My other T never said anything about herself, well one time, just that she wasn't married because I was worried about my age and not having kids yet ect...thats when she told me. I like that my current one shares some, it makes me a little more relaxed with her for some reason.

I told her that I keep trying in relationships but I always bail when a man starts to get more intimate. I said sometimes I just want to give up with it, that I feel its a waste of time, its a never ending cycle for me. She said well your here so I know there is a part of you that doesn't want to give up on that. Then she said you know if you want, you can give up on that. I was thinking what lol, she just said I could give up. I am sure she meant something like just let it be and see where it goes, rather than stressing over it. It was an interesting statement lol maybe I should ask her what she actually meant by it.