I can't feel anything at all. I'm not feeling low, I'm not feeling good, I'm feeling absolutely nothing.

And then, the next minute, I'm overwhelmed by emotions I don't think there are even words for. I feel like I'm full, like at any minute my heart is going to pop because there's so much stuff inside me that I need to get out. I want to cry, I want the release that comes with tears -- I feel like that'd relieve some of the pressure, but I can't do it. I'm just filling and filling and filling and I don't know how much room I have left because none of it is draining back out.

And then it goes away and I'm stuck feeling nothing again. And I don't know what's worse, feeling more than you can handle, or not feeling anything at all.

Anyways, that's it. I'm going to take a sleeping pill and hopefully fall asleep and when I wake up maybe things will be different. I just wanted to get this out there. Sorry if it doesn't make any sense.