(((((((((((((tania_f))))))))))))))) Well, first off - are you seeing a therapist at all? You can bounce ideas off of them to help you out.

If the guy makes you depressed and is lying to you and already has a girlfriend - try to forget him. You deserve better than that, even if you want to be in a relationship.

Parents rarely seem to fully understand what we go through as younger people. It's unfortunately pretty common of a problem.

I know the future is scary - but hang onto what you enjoy doing -- and perhaps talk to your doctor about getting on some antidepressants?