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Originally Posted by Sittingatwatersedge said:
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By that time, as he becomes an adult, has he not developed the habit of wearing a false persona? Since he learned to lie early (and well), and continued lying for so many years, is he now just fundamentally a liar? and will always be one?
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Yes, he has developed this habit and is a liar. But if he is sitting at the water's edge looking at his reflection and acknowledging that and not liking that person....then who HE really is, is something separate. He is someone who recognizes the false front and the lies. And in your case has already begun to take actions to not always be this way.
velcro...I frequently feel like you discribe. Especially the part about being a big wuss and never having taken the change to put myself out there enough to have deep feelings for anything. I sometime think...the reason I don't cry or remember either tender/loving or sad moments from the past is...because there were none. I had heart or soul back then. And in actuality... maybe I didn't. For the longest time I thought I was one of those people who had some type of brain damage to the amygdala region that made me incapable of having real emotions. Then I realized if that were true how could I be so upset and feel so guilty about it.
I think recently I am finding that I in fact do have some ability to feel. I'm not sure if I will find that I had a soul in the past, but I least I found one in the present.
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