hi molly.. it is so hard feeling disconnected and alone... try starting small, make a great relationship with something that cant hurt you as you fear, pets are one good example but i have also spent time in the woods, establishing caring and loving connections with the life and spirit of something greater than myself and which also didnt harm me (unless i was very careless) .. after some time of re-establishing my own place in the world, i then felt confident enough about my own inner feelings, i felt i understood what my own goals were in a relationship and after spending time with kind nature, i felt confident enough to attempt being with other people .. not everything works for everybody, but establishing a strong loving connection to myself and the beauty around me, it gradually taught me about love again.. when i felt ready to talk to others about that level of love, i was able to find others in my area who also felt my inner need for a deeper connection and talking about nature was a lot safer than dropping my inner load of pain on them and gave the others something more kind to think about as well... best always