I do hypnotherapy, so it's not majorly hard. Every time I feel bad I try to think of that special place that I'd love to be, but then sometimes I even get depressed about that because I'm not there

It's weird because.. I'm really confused. I think I dreamt Abi telling me that Jason was planning a horse riding trip over half term, but I don't know.. I feel like she told me this morning, but at the same time, i feel like I dreamt it or dissociated if she told me, so didn't catch it.. I'm so confused and it's really bugging me!! Because I'm like.. "Yay!! Horseriding! My favourite place to be! Can't wait!" But then I stop and think 'Oh.. But was it a dream..???'

It's so annoying because it's screwing my thoughts and everything up

Thank you for the hugs, justfloating. It is so, so scary and I have woken up in tears twice because of them i don't want to keep dreaming like this, it's horrible. They're so real!

I don't know what to do..