Don't beat yourself up - addiction is a disease, not a moral weakness! I have been addicted to pain medication in the past and I could not stop taking them on my own. It is even more challenging when you have legitimate pain issues and face the fear that you have to try something else. I get Migraines and have a lot of body pain, too. You are damaging your body and will also have to experience withdrawal, but try to remember it is only temporary. I would get a doctor's advice before you try going off the codeine by yourself. And then the challenge is to find a way to stay off of them in the future. I attend 12 step meetings - including Pills Anonymous - and the benefit of being able to talk to someone else who has struggled with pills and is recovering is priceless. Take it one day at a time and be gentle with yourself.
Lisa (scooterb)