My T told me, yesterday (among other things, that are really stressing me out) that the world is divided into 2 kinds of people.

Fighters and Flighters.

People who avoid and people who fight.

He said he was a fighter and I was an avoider.

I think he might have been calling me a coward. I already feel like one. And he knows that. Why would he rub it in?
I'm kind of mad.

He also says he is about to terminate with me, cuz I told him I bought an SI tool. Even though I said I wasn't going to use it. I just got a little triggered yesterday and bought it. I should never have mentioned it. But I did, and now he is freaking.

I want to quit therapy now. But now I feel trapped. He is going to think I am quitting so I can go cut and feel he has to "take measures" . He said he would.

I am going to see him again on Monday, give him the tool, play all "normal" and get him off my back!!! Then I have to play all "normal" for a few more sessions. Then maybe I can quit and not be put in hospital involuntarily.

Gee I am glad I am in therapy. It is really working out well.

This is just great! NOT.