I agree with everyone who said you should talk to your T about this.
It sounds to me like she messed up - by promising something and not following through. That must hurt very much....and especially because it has to do with your old T who you still care about so much.

BUT! maybe she can explain her reasoning and it might make better sense to you. And surely she will apologize for changing her mind and causing such confusion and strife. T's are only human and make mistakes too.....they can be really serious when dealing with people like us who have trust issues. But like Earthmama said, trying to work this out might help you to take a step forward in your healing.

((((((((((((((((((((((kittykins))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I'm sorry you have to go through this right now.......let us know what happens, okay?