Dear dear dear friends,
I want to thank all of you for your incredibly thoughtful responses. They helped me to do what I should do, which is to confront this head on with current T and agree to meet with her so we could talk about this more. Lots of you brought up so many good points, and I do remember with old T times when we have very serious disagreements over the years. This could be a way that we get past some of these issues, and it's also a way for me to make it clear how important trust is in this and how I'm struggling.

You guys are so beautiful; I hope you know that! Thank you so much for all you said. I will meet with T as planned on Tuesday, and work to resolve this with her. Honestly, what choice do I have anyway. I don't want to remain in this state, and I do want to get well. This T is the only option for that right now, unless I go it alone-- and I honestly don't think I can do this on my own.

Bless you all so much for your advice and thoughts. They are so much appreciated and I hope that as time goes on, I will be able to help each and every one of you as you have helped me today.

Kkins