Hi Kitty,
I have had such huge disruptions in my therapy and there have been times when I have been soooo angry with T and didn't see any possible way that I could go back. But I did.
In fact, once we had a huge disagreement and he really hurt my feelings in session and I thought I could never go back or trust him again. He even said something that seemed the exact opposite of what he had promised. So I do understand. But you know what I did? Instead of staying away I asked for an extra session and I went in the next day and talked through my feelings. T thanked me for coming.
I wanted to try and break the cycle -- my own personal habit -- of walking away from things instead of talking them through. And it really helped.
T and I are now closer than I think we would be if we had not had these ruptures and worked through them. I feel very protected by him right now.
So I guess I am sharing this to give you some sense of how you might be able to take a try at working through this disappointment.
Best of luck.