I'm sorry that you are going through so much pain right now and that for whatever reason your therapist has taken the position he has. He is human and has your best interest at hand. P7 mentioned that he might be scared and I wonder about that also. But if he is then I hope you can discuss that with him. I don't know your history, if SI'ing has led to suicide attempts then he might have a point about hospitalization but terminating b/c you are talking about it seems pretty drastic. That being said, I am writing this cautiously b/c I am not a therapist.

Maybe he thinks that giving you this warning will give you the incentive you need not to SI.

I can hear from your post that you now feel like you have more stress. Do you think that you could talk to your therapist about how to move forward from here but still maintain an open and honest line of communication? It seems to me and I may be really wrong but that in order for him to know what is going on he needs to know when you are at that point. Maybe there is a way to "catch it" before it gets to this point and you can work on that.

I hope that you are able to remain safe and find some common ground when you speak to him.

Please keep us posted, you are not alone in your experience.