rayna...i am so proud of you for taking this big step and i'm behind you all the way in whatever way you may need a friend......my dad belonged to AA for many years and it was the best thing that ever happened to him..i used to go to meetings with him as a child and set up the coffee table...i can still remember some of people's stories and how touched i was by them even as a child...and as the AA prayer says.."God grant me the serenity to accept the things i can't change...courage to change the things i can....and wisdom to know the difference." you can do this and you know we're all rooting for you!