Must feel good to have soemone who cares and is willing to work with you. Think thats what he is saying. I told you before to throw away the toools as you call it. But think actually turning them over to him will instill the faith as a contract. Think he was harsh but he knows you and maybe thats how he needs to respond to your urges. I wouldnt know b\c I dont have a t or whatever. But glad you emailed him and he replied. Keep up the good job by not SHing. Takes a strong person to not act on the urges.