First let me say AMEN to what Angie said....

Max I am so sorry I was not here for you today...my anxiety got so bad for me today I took my meds and went to bed and slept until now. I just got on and saw your post... my heart goes out to you...but your not a fu no one is....brush yourself off and start again ok....we are here for you and most of us here are NOT judgemental and we love you.....{{{{hugs}}}}}