((EM))) breathe, you can make it .. sometimes we are in a very scary place and it feels like forward movement is that one step that takes us over the edge, but when we stop and look back at it, the path has not crumbled behind us, so, i think we can go with our own inner instinct about matters if our goal is what we believe is the healthiest one for ourselves.. it hs taken you much time to develop this instinct and it has led you to this place you are in now.. a good captain would say hold the wheel