Alright, let me try to address everyone's questions here and then whine a bit more. Oh and first, thanks for responding.

TheDeliciousDish, no, there is never a good time to be sad. I guess I meant that relatively. I would rather go into depression later in life when things were more stable in the long term. Like, after I have a career and a family and all that. Doesn't sound like a great idea, but at least my depression wouldn't so drastically affect my future. I figure the more foundation you've already set down, the harder it is to lose it all and mess up.

Me, I'm a young adult, and I think it's a bad time to feel like this. I made great grades in high school and got a scholarship to one of the top universities in the country, and I'm considered by most to be a genius, whatever that means (I don't believe in those kinds of labels). I've always had social troubles, but I was able to hide behind my brain and my accomplishments better when I lived at home than I am now. I always masked my feelings well, and now I can't do that anymore.

What I was referring to as not being a good time to be sad, is this time that I'm supposed to be shaping my future. If I do well now, I'll live well later. If I don't do well now, I won't have a good life ahead of me. My current state doesn't allow me to live up to my full potential, so it's always haunting me that I could have been someone different had I not fallen into this pit of depression. I don't mean to brag, but I have great cognitive abilities, and I think if someone had them to the degree I do, without the depression and Asperger's syndrome and plethora of psychological issues, they could do much better in life than I will be able to now. That's why I thought it would have been better, if this depression was my destiny, for it to come after I'd laid the foundation for my life.

Madisgram, I have not been going to my therapist lately. I have trouble connecting to people and feel very uncomfortable talking to random professionals about my personal issues.