I have had similar thoughts. Sometimes now that I am seeing a T I am more aware or focused on my feelings especially the negative ones. I sometimes wonder if I quit seeing her would I quit focusing on those feelings and just get on with my life. I believe I brought this up to her in around about way saying that sometimes I feel I really don't need therapy I am just a whiny person feeling sorry for myself and that I've gone this long without therapy so do I really need it and my T said that I do need it and that I am just not allowing myself to take care of me and I am in therapy to make my life better. Not to beat myself up so much. So I look at it as a step to becoming healthier and taking care of me. Which is so hard! I do believe that therapy does help especially my problem with stuffing my feelings and what people say and do to me positive and negative. I realized that even the positive messages from others were being stuffed with the negative becasue I thought (think) I don't deserve them.