I got triggered twice today -

I was in the movies watching a comedy - well it was supposed to be a comedy - ended up being a bit dark - but that didnt trigger me - in the movie a boy has lost his toy and its under the front seat of his car - his dad (a ghost) asks somone to tell him where the toy is as the boy cries at night for it - still ok - then they show the toy under the front seat of the car - MASSIVE TRIGGER - FLASHBACK - terror - thats the only way I can describe it - I thought/felt - its my red squirrel (dont even remember what the stuffed toy in the movie was ) - its hiding under the bed - its afraid - then I see a small girl crawl under the bed - shes terrified - she doesnt want to be found - then strong arms pull her out from under the bed but the toy squirrel is left behind under the bed in the dark and in my head I am screaming - iITS NOT ME! ITS NOT ME! im still shaking - stopped off at shops and went to get some shopping to distract myself - cos it was loopped in my head - and they had the ceiling down for repair - 2nd trigger - lots of wires and metal fire water things - had to leave reminded me of the storeroom the guy who attacked me came from - i understnd 2nd one - but how do i know 1st one is real ???!!! I feel like im going crazy - sorry for long post - but im really struggling here..... how do you know if its real - and how do I stop the voice in my head shouting its not me! over and over...... im sorry I meant to check how everyone is - but i cant stay - cant do this at the moment - have to find a way to make it stop - will come back later - sorry