I ask myself the same thing - is it better just to get it over with and deal with the consequences - for me the answer is no - the shame I would feel for letting my T and myself down (not that I count for much) so that would be my T and my sister -letting them down - would outweigh the release of cutting - but I still want to so badly - I know it would ground me - but it will just make it harder next time to resist -

I really hope you find the strength to resist cutting - it is addictive - so its hard to give up - the release it gives to the pain is temporary - the scars both emotionally and physically can be life long - please stay safe - maybe we can beat this together - you me and everyone else here that is struggling - you can do this...