I keep thinking about this session and find myself beginning to cry. The feelings of gratitude, relief and joy and disbelieve that at last my time has come, I too know what it is to have someone kind in your life...T said during the session that it wasn't a big thing to have someone wait for you..to me its more than a big thing, its the first time ever someone has relaxed a rule...something else T had said about my fears that now T had given me something, she would turn into my adoptive mother and become sadistic, she changed the word sadistic to ruthless....my adoptive parents were ruthless in their rules...its like I've been locked in a dark place and finally someone has heard me and set me free...I feel so full of warmth and contentment and a will to want to live this life for the first time ever if I am truely honest with myself....