Oh Earthmama,
I am so sorry to hear of your sad news. It is so difficult to deal with the death of a friend, and sometimes even harder when that death is totally unexpected.
I am just holding you in my thoughts and heart and sending you more virtual hugs than I can type.

I wish you all the best in this terrible grief, and I know that you will use this community to get the support you need.

Fondly,
Kkins