Hi to all, i hope that you are all ok.
I have had a rough week. I have had major flashbacks of things from when i was a young adult that i have never talked about. i talked to my Therapist about them and i thought things were ok after that. But they are coming and coming fast. I can't stop them they just have to happen.
Most of all, i can't stand myself. I don't want to be here anymore. I have been doing a lot of thinking and looking on the internet for help. I have called help-lines and my counselor and also had an appointment with my pdoc.
He said there really isn't anything we can do as far as meds go because i have been on so many. He thinking i need a long term hospital stay. My therapist I talked to Thursday night, and things were kinda ok...but now they aren't at all.
I have talked to my couple of friend i have and i am afraid to tell them how i am really feeling.
Anyways, am just wondering if anyone has any suggestions on what i can do. I don't want to go to the hospital because i will lose my job, and i can't afford that.
Thanks for listening
Jenni