Whoa! Sorry, You percieve this as that. . . so very sorry for you, and your denial.
I do pray you will see the light, as many of us have.
May take years, but hey, it's worth it.
Many of us have been where you are and much further, worse.
Recovery, remission, all depends on your own choices.
Support? Yeah, we are here, including me, but do you want truth? Or some patronizing, sugar coated replies of support? Or, the "real thing" from people that have "been there"?
It's up to you.
Years ago, I came here in need, everyone was supporting (small membership, small audience) but at the same time I, like most sought professional help, persued it, forced our ways through the professional crap, moved forward, in spite of hospitalization, etc. instead of allowing ourselves to fall victim of this horrible disease, horrible for us, and you are not any different, you can do it, kid, you can break these horrible chains.
Sorry, this is not what you wanted to hear, but kid, it's reality.
We, are not always fortunate to have an audience, many of us are put or sign in to a place where only the professionals narrate the "real" show. . .and then most of us come to decide, work at getting better, no repeat visits to the "psych ward" (and believe me kid, we work our butts off) and swallow our pride and go with the treatment, regimens.
That's your own decision, and it is your own personal choice, but allowing yourself to stay in the burning circle and then have cries of need, etc. is so very foolish, you are robbing yourself of many good years that can come, and they do, believe me.
I apologize if I just frazzled your feathers, but you do need to open yourself to "real possibilites", and believe me I am not being mean, I am telling you what it really is about and what it can be. You decide.

Sincerely,
DE

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