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Originally Posted by GrayNess
Thank you Junerain and Micah for the replies. I know it may sound somewhat odd but as Micah mentioned the rage that dictated their life, I like the rage, the power, etc... . Gives such a rush especially if there's another person/people around feeling it.
I'm not a believer in karma and am not going to pay back any karmatic cost or apologies because what I did I enjoyed and did it for a reason. Any apologies I give are empty and meaningless words that others like to hear (although I do tend to break them and promises a fair bit).
I suppose it would get easier although it's not frightening learning all of it, it's just confusing and many times I just want to quit the therapy because I'm getting nowhere.
Well, I'll do the MMPI-2 test, although how long did it take you to do? I assume 3-5 hours?
Junerain, yes, certain psyches do have their advantages, no arguement there. Time can also be a great healer, although much of the damage I've caused still hasn't worn off of some people yet. Who knows though, it may change for me a bit or a lot. I'm pretty sure I cant go into saying what I've done here but humans and animals have all been targets in the past and present.
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I took the abbreviated MMPI 2 in three hours. The abbreviated version is over 300 questions, they are all yes/no, or "I don't know".
I was distracted when I took it or it would have been around 1.5 to 2.0 hours max. I imagine the full MMPI 2 is quite a bit longer, and yes, it is very annoying, especially when you don't really know how to give a yes/no
You will not likely be able to answer all of the questions due to lack of understanding emotions. In that event, you choose the answer "don't know". Too many "don't know's" will invalidate the test.
There are several scales/subscales on the test, which means several different ways to "grade" it. It is only useful as an adjunct to traditional diagnosis by a psychologist. There is no right or wrong answer. Whatever the scales they use to measure your answers by will indicate what they were testing for. There over a hundred scales they could choose from.
Do not trust anyone who would not be open with you about what they are testing for.
I recommend a psychologist, as residents and psychiatrists are actually substandard to the real deal-- a psychologist actually has much more training in psychology and psychological diagnosis--- a psychiatrist usually has VERY little training in neuropsychological/psychological tests.
Psychiatrists are more trained in medication management. They are almost all purely biologically oriented ("biological" in the sense that they only treat things with medication). Medication is not the answer to everything, although it can be useful. However, medication is not a panacea.
I wanted to add that ASPD, and especially NPD, are VERY poorly understood. This is likely the reason you think that your therapy is getting nowhere. NPD is less than two percent of the world's population. Your therapist should recommend you to a specialist in NPD if at all possible, but they are likely somewhat able to help and I would continue with the therapy.
Please consider that being honest with your therapist is one of the steps to getting better. They will not likely be shocked by anything you say.