oh my mary alice.
I had no idea things had deprogressed this much (not sure that is a word) I wish I could help more than just saying how much you mean to me on here..

I wish I could give you what you want.
but my innerslef is having a hard time dealing with her own problems.. and I still cant ask for the hlep you offer. I am so sorry for that. I just am not good at that. never have been and I do not think I ever will be.

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if not enough tel. me and I will give more

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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