(((((((((((((((((((((Tryin))))))))))))))))))

My heart is aching for you right now. I am so, so sorry for the pain your feeling.
Your mother loved you. She needed you just as much as you needed her. She may be gone, physically. But she is with you everyday of your life, watching you, holding you, kissing you, loving you, guiding you. Your mother is a part of you. This type of bond can never be broken. Close your eyes and remember her. You will feel her arms hugging you.
Take care of yourself. We are here for you.