HI-

Your situation sounds a lot like mine..and i have paranoid schizophrenia. It started when i was 3 (hearing voices/seeing things) and slowly progressed. When i was about 9, i became extreamly paranoid and fearful of everything..believing i was being stalked by killers and that they were putting bombs outside my house, poisoning my food, hiding in my house, etc. I was also very fearful. Afraid i had a life-threatening food allergy, afraid i was going to die or my mom was going to die in a car accident or something. I became "phobic" and mistrusting of everything and everybody. I had panic attacks many times every day for years (until i got on the right meds)

For years, i was misdiagnosed with many things--first depression,anxiety,PTSD and a language processing disorder..then: psychotic depression, anxiety with panic attacks, OCD, ADD, and depersonalization disorder.

It wasn't until a year ago, when i was 17 that i was correctly diagnosed (with paranoid schizophrenia) these days, my symptoms include: hearing voices having conversations in my head and sometimes commenting on me, having visions, seeing things, feeling possessed/like others are inhibiting my body, paranoid delusions, delusions of refference,grandoise delusions, Thought disruption, intrusive thoughts (very similar to yours) Obsessive-compulsive-like symptoms, flat emotions, etc.

eh..sorry, i am rambling. Anyway, i hope i did not scare you...im not trying to tell you that you have schiz, Because of coarse im no doctor, and your symptoms could be caused by a vast number of other things (such as, psychotic depression, bipolar disorder, dissociative disorders, etc.). The chances of you having schiz are only about 1%. But the uncontrollable thoughts, OCD-like symptoms and paranoia, are all common symptoms of schizophrenia. Schiz is classified as a psychotic disorder and a thought disorder.

...As for the voices you hear at night when you are falling off to sleep...i am very confused about this myself. I experience the same thing (i hear voices when i'm wide awake, but they get louder and more clear when i am falling off to sleep) i have heard that this can be somewhat normal--to hear voices when one is falling to sleep. Then again, i have heard that it isn;t, so i really dont know--it's confusing the heck out of me.
. How long have you been hearing these voices?

Well, anyways. it is possible that you could have something other than depression/anxiety/and OCD. It's very common to be misdiagnosed when it comes to these mental illnesses. Maybe you could get a second opinion from another doc?
Have you told your current pdoc about all these symptoms? (the intrusive thoughts, voices you hear at night, paranoia, etc) they can't properly diagnose you unless you let them know about all your symptoms.

...I also have those horrible intrusive thoughts..like thoughts of murdering my mother and sister in horrible ways, throwing my dog off a cliff, incest, and other horrible thoughts i cant control and that i would never want...it makes me shudder to think about them.

Well, i wish you the best of luck

-Becka