I posted this in the answers section, but im a little impatient, hopefully someone will answer me faster through here...

I have had increased anger since about 12.But ever since i can remember i have always been on my own, even with 2 married parents. i dealt with hearing alot of arguing growing up.I never have felt close with my mother,nor father.I do not trust anyone,and i cant forgive either.I hold grudges, and i cry ALOT. I do not have many friends either. I was spanked as a child, if that has anything to do with anything, i dont know. When i tried to talk with my mom about my feelings or if she knows why i am the way i am, she called it "ATTENTION" and nothing. which really enraged me, because these are real feelings. Any ideas of whats going on? if its nothing be honest.

Also, I have about 3 dreams that repeat every year or so. I have had them since i was a little girl, no matter how crazy or unbelievable that sounds. The dreams are EXACTLY the same each time i have them. They are all violent, and i have woke up crying.