I felt the same way when I was with my longtime boyfriend. I felt so alone, even when he was right there. He said he cared, but I didn't feel it. I wasn't in treatment then on dealing with my PTSD so I was completely shut down, I think. I had so many emotional barriers up that as badly as I wanted to be cared for, I was terrified of it, too.
Do you think you could sit down and talk about this more with your boyfriend? With your therapist, even? He may not realize how some of the things he says affect you.
I can really relate to the feeling that you should just keep quiet. But that's no way to live. My heart goes out to you.
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