i don't know how much more i can take. y'all know that i'm raising my 2 yr. old nephew. that's been hard in an of itself. it's been ongoing.

i had to go and see my father who's in ICU on a ventilator after removal of a lung to cancer. i had to leave him to come home...lying in that bed...alone. i can't say what that did to me to see him like that. i cried the entire way home, of course.

i come home (after getting myself together a bit) and listen to messages. well, someone had forgotten to hang the phone up, and you have to listen to it all and then erase if. after a bit i could hear talking (i'm just waiting for it to end so that i can erase it!). it was my future son-in-law and his mother talking. she was talking about how things need to get done for my daughter's baby shower. my future son-in-law said that my other daughter (maid of honor) was very immature, and that me and my husband have spoiled her badly. his mother went on to say that she's just not used to immature children. then she said something else and he said, "well, jen's mom just isn't very reliable." immediate knife in my heart. this woman has tried to take over the shower since we started the planning. she had just called me so sweetly and asked (because i'm going thru so much with the baby and my father), do you want me to get the invitations out. please keep in mind that i've been on my daughter for about a week and a half for the friggin list! she still hasn't given me the list! how can i get invitations out without a list????

the timing of this message was perfect...NOT. my heart is broken. i'm supposed to act like everything is fine at this shower now?

i don't know what to feel or think. i've been broken.

thanks,

kd