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I was kinda of thinking, the more my unmet needs get met, my fears of being attacked again, of being abandoned again , well off life begin to heal, I am finding that I am gradually coming to "mans'" orignal most basic fear, DYING.
yes, today my mind is frantically searching for all the depressives thoughts and unmet longings that normally occupys' itself within my mind and they are too a certain degree, less intense now. It reminds me of the post on Maslows list to self actulisation, instead I feel as if I am gradually spiralling into my most basic fear where all other fears are just branches that stem from this.. I don't know if I have the courage yet to face this core fear, dying yet. Suddenly it seems so much more easier to worry about old fears than it is to face any "real" fear.
Viewing all the fears I have worked through so far, these seem almost like a luxury, I am working my way "down" ...hhhmmm, not sure if this will make sense.
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Here is the test to find whether your mission on earth is finished. If you're alive, it isn't. ~Richard Bach
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