This is one of those moments where it feels like a choice has to be made between therapy and real life.

I've been in therapy for close to 2 years. This is my first time trying it and it's been very very hard and I've struggled a lot with it. But I do feel like it helps me learn things I haven't been able to learn up to this point on my own, and makes me a more well-rounded person. I think my T is very qualified, is a good match for me, and knows me well, and I really can't fathom starting over with someone new. I feel like I was so lucky to have found someone so good on this try, and that it would be highly unlikely that I'd find someone so good again.

So the problem: is it strange not to consider a job offer in a new city primarily because you would have to leave your therapy/therapist behind?

I don't know. Is that a sign that your priorities are off? Like, the point of therapy is to improve your life functioning/position, and in some ways, that would be holding yourself back for therapy instead. And for what? For a paid relationship, that will eventually end anyway. I already spend way too much energy thinking about therapy, instead of on more productive career enhancing activities.

All that said, I have always had trouble with breaks in therapy, and my T has said she feels like she's always on the edge of losing me. That is, I do struggle with not just walking away from therapy when I feel upset, I am sensitive to disruptions in our regular schedule, and I think I would feel a huge loss if I left. Moving would be the ultimate walking away...maybe the braver, bigger learning opportunity would be to stay and keep that "relationship" alive?

I really don't know what the sensible thing to feel here is...