I've gotten where you are now myself before. Last year was really bad-I kept having flashbacks on a daily basis&had a hard time dealing w/them because my only support system is my pdoc that I see once a week. It caused lots of problems in my relationship w/my bf. This year we seem to be doing OK, but I do still get flashbacks or get triggered-it really sucks. Hang in there-you might try meditation if you can, don't worry if it seems impossible at first, it's an acquired skill/tool for anxiety dissipation.