Well, I had my appt with the rheumatologist. He confirmed the fibromyalgia diagnosis and doesn't think there is anything else at this time. The best part was that he was sooo validating. He guessed about a traumatic childhood and that I live on guilt. He could see that I was extremely overwhelmed by it all (especially after I started crying! ). He agreed with my t that I should probably stop working for a while, to give myself time to heal and find some ways to manage the pain. I'm still not sure about doing that though. (It just wouldn't be me to do something for myself now would it?!) I have had a roller coaster weekend and am trying to make some hard decisions.
This was the first medical doctor that actually looked at the emotional side of illness, and how the psychological and physical bodies interact with each other. He did not, however, make me feel that the fibro is "my fault" or that it is not a real disability! How refreshing! He also suggested a book, called "The Power of NOW", which I completed this weekend. It is about living in the present, not the past or future, which is something I need to learn how to do. It is a good book, although very deep. I will need to reread it several times. I highly recommend it.
Thanks for being here for me, you all have been so supportive and validating. HUGS!