Alright.....more drama in my life so turning to you guys...again...still
The woman/girl I've been talking to online since October says she wants to be at the airport when i come home. I'm all about it. Her and I talk everyday through Yahoo messenger, send each other cute messages and stuff. The other day she said she was stressed out about school and she is in a little financial pickle, so i sent her a gift certificate to a spa.
She and I both admitted to each other that we have feelings for each other. I realized it when she was at a party, and she was texting me saying that she was so drunk that some of her male friends wanted to help her get into her pj's. I know I shouldn't have gotten mad or upset but i did! Hardly a month before that, I found out my soon to be ex-wife (its over between her and i DEF now) had been running around on me AGAIN.
Well Jen, the online girl, and I still talk everyday and she has admitted she has gone out on dates with other guys. She said it doesn't feel right to her and she mainly thinks about me when she is out with them.
A few weeks ago, she said she was stressing about something and I for one, at the very least would like to have a friendship base first. She ageed (she helped me out and was there for me for the seperation since her and i started talking). Well she admitted that she was thinking about giving her ex bf who used her for sex a second chance. And some other stuff with the other guys but this one guy urks me. I haven't met him, dont know him from the man on the moon but something about him just.....doesnt sit right with me. Well for one, lets just say he wears the same thing to work I do, and is stationed where I want to be stationed (NC) and he has cheated on her and since my wife is a HUGE cheater....well i think i just answered my own question there...
Jen has told me a few times that she has stopped seeing other guys bc she cant see herself with them later down the road, only me. But then she goes out with them again. I feel bad bc she said she stopped going out with guys for a guy who is deployed right now and her and i havent even been face to face yet! At least not in the flesh.....So I actually encouraged her to go out and date. She said she won't bc it doesnt feel right only to find out a few weeks later....she has. It's not so much that she has been out on dates.....but she says that she has stopped and then she hasn't.
She says she has stopped dating the guy but still sees him as a friend from time to time. Now I do not know what to call her and I/us because we havent touched, hugged, kissed or anything yet! and its driving me crazy!
I have never felt like this about a girl that i never met in person before.....I can see myself with her later down the road but i would like to figure out what to call us/her and i.

Oh yeah one more thing.....I won't be able to leave Japan and be stationed back in the US for another year and a half. It is asking ALOT for a girl to remain single for that amount of time....and especially for somebody you will only see for a few weeks (when i get out of the sandbox) and then its back to talking for hours and hours on the internet/phone.
I really care for her, I really do. What to do??