Recently my neighbor died. She was a very sweet elderly lady that I had known for over 12 years. I went to her funeral and it was the first time that I had been to one and not cried. I felt awful that I didn't. I just sat there with all the other crying people and felt nothing.

The next day I watched The Notebook and cried through the last hour of it and I still tear up whenever I think of it. I can't talk about it without getting emotional. I can't listen to people talk about it with out getting emotional. It does hit on my greatest fear which is getting older and not being able to remember my life. But still, it's a movie.

It just blows my mind that I'm emotionless when it comes to my neighbor and over emotional over a movie.

I don't know what to do.