Tomorrow I see my T and it really hit me today that I am really nervous about going. Last week something made me shut down at the end and I wanted to bolt out of thaat office. Looking back I realize I feel this way a lot right before my session, but normally I am at work the day before and my mind gets filled with work stuff, but today was holiday and all day I kept thinking Oh No I have to go tomorrow. There is a part of me that looks forward to going because I so want to get better. I feel so confused about therapy, I talk myself into thinking I don't need it so maybe I'll cancel to what would I do if I couldn't go and talk to someone. I need it.
I was wondering do others feel that way? What do you do to get yourself centered again and realize it is okay and nothing is going to happen that you can't handle.