That's the thing I am afraid of -- spilling my guts. I did talk to a T last year and had a very bad experience. She was so cold and uncaring. After that disastrous visit, I decided that I would never see her again. So I continue to see my Family Nurse Practitioner in hopes that she can help me. My appointment with my FNP is later this month. In the past when I had my appts with my FNP she would ask me how things were going and all I could do would be to "break down in tears." In between tears I try to talk about what's bothering me, but I change the subject so as to not talk about the things that cause me to cry and upset me.

I know my FNP needs to know what's going on so she can help me. I just can't talk about it. I know I need help. Deep down, I think that's the reason I don't want to go to a T. I would have to talk about things in my childhood that I try to forget. I wasn't abused, but other things happened.