Del12
I can very much relate. Two weeks ago I opened up and shared something intense with my T. Two days after that I was a mess out of no where, so I emailed her and told her I could not talk about really emotional issues right now. She emailed back saying I could talk about what ever I wanted. So I get there and the talk is light, but before I walked through her door, I wanted to run. I was a nervous wreck.
Anyways, I actually opened up and told her how I was feeling, something I rarely ever do. She was very happy that I didn't leave. Then we discussed my feelings around wanting to leave. I felt much better after leaving last week.
Here is the thing, I go back tomorrow and I am already nervous about it, I'm not sure why. I have been trying to figure that out. Perhaps it's because I actually opened up and shared stuff with her, let her see a side of me that I never let people see. Maybe that scares me. Yeh, that scares me, I hate being vulnerable and I fear connection because it's always resulted in loss in that past.

Perhaps, you can go in there and be as honest as you can about what your feeling. I found that worked pretty well.
hangingon