I remember in one of my very early sessions, T looked at me and said, "This relationship is real." Now, just because he said it doesn't make it so but I had a lot of difficulty embracing this concept, because of the fear of getting hurt. In what way does it not feel reciprocal? The money? Yeah-I can get that but I have to figure that T has to make a living, this is his profession. I do believe he is emotionally invested in this relationship as well. The balance is askew but I do feel that unless I make that big investment of energy I won't get out of it what I need. In order to get what I need I have to take this risk. YIKES!

This is the hard stuff of therapy, Notme. You know what's best for you.