thank you for having the courage to post about your step-grandfather.  it must be difficult for you. imho i'd just stay away from that website altogether. it only beings back the abuse you endured done by him. do u have a t that you can discuss your feelings about this with? if so perhpas, he/she can help you get to a better understanding of how to cope with your feelings about him and "put him to rest." i was able to get past the feelings of abuse for the most part through therapy. i hope the same happens to you. my life now does not center around the abuse but replaced with good things in my life.
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