****sigh*** I know how frustrating all this is for you. I know you want companionship, even just online. You are right, she is more open and honest than your wife, and that's great if you are willing to have an "open" "swinger" type relationship. It doesn't sound like that's what you want though. Please take some time for you, to enjoy doing the things you want to do (I know, you want to make someone else happy, build a relationship with someone). Explore different activities, get involved on base in different things. Live for YOU.