(((pixies)))

odd trains of thought here, might be somewhat confusing - careful:

i think what is going on is the same that went on with me - traumatic event happens (i think a flashback / seeing what has been done to you can be comparable to this, at least somewhat), you deal with it well, then suddenly comes a setback.

what helped me was when i didn't have to hide it - my boyfriend found my post and confronted me, but didn't react badly. it's been a month now, have lost huge chunks of time (it's still quite overwhelming and as y'all know, emotions are very creepy!) but it's a lot better. so hang in there...

can you guys talk to your T too? maybe you could get some stuff yanked out (gently of course) that way?

(about burnout from being online: sometimes when in a dissociated state - whether it's depersonalization or derealization or whatever - being online makes it worse at least for me... so i try and avoid being online whenever feeling fuzzy - but of course, if you have support online and that's your only choice, guess you could just keep that page open and not surf around since you might stumble upon something you really don't want to)

ok - sorry i don't have any advice, but sending you hugs and my thoughts.

twilight et al.