feeling overwhelmed from my session today....we covered a lot of tough areas. I opened up and told my T things I had held in all week and now I feel overwhelmed and these feelings need to come out. I feel the strong urge to SI tonight BAD....really bad...he says I did good by talking and being open today and when I came out I felt good but now I am wondering stupid things like I wonder what he is really thinking about what I said.....I have not been able to eat all day....I try but cannot swallow ....I know it is anxiety....that is why I feel if I give in and cut it will help....but I feel bad I talked to someone last night and talked them into not SIing and now I want too....ugh someone stop this merry go round and let me off I feel sick....